Should i try weed to stop my anxiety?

In my country weed is illegal and hard to find but i have been thinking to start it since i heard it could be helpful to some people. I cannot go to a psychiatrist and write down pills for myself because my family is so close-minded and they don't believe anything what i'm saying so what should i do? or If I should stay away from weed then what would you suggest to relax and suffocate myself?