My 10 year old daughter passed away last Saturday, and the guilt it eating me alive.

My 10 year old was my first born, with two daughters after her who loved and looked up to their big sister. She was perfect. This kid didn't have a mean bone in her body. She was the best kid. We all got sick, it started with me and dad, and then my middle child got it, following my youngest, then my oldest last. I treated it the way I'd always treat it. Rotate tylenol and ibuprofen, with rest and fluids. If the fevers ever got too high, I'd take them to the ER, but they were mild. I worked a double shift Saturday, and my oldest was still unwell. I checked on her and she was in bed watching TV. I left the kids with their dad like always when I work. He called hysterical around 11pm saying she was gone. I rushed home and pulled her out of bed to try and start cpr, but I knew she was gone. She died from the Flu A virus with complications, like dehydration. My heart is torn apart. My baby trusted me, and I let her down. CPS stepped in and placed our kids with family to rule out foul play, and honestly, this past week has been the hardest I've ever had to fight for my own life. I just wanna be with my little girl so I know she isn't alone, but I have two other kids who don't deserve to lose their sister AND their mom. Thats the only reason I'm here. (I'm not gonna do anything, I promise.) They placed the kids back with us yesterday, thankfully. We are waiting to make sure they aren't going to attempt to press charges for "medical neglect" even though I made sure my kids have medication, water, Gatorade, anything they needed, all because we didn't take her to the doctor. But I didn't know. She was acting just like our other two, and we were just trying to get the kids through the sickness. Any other time I've taken one of my kids to the doctor for a virus, they always tell me "push fluids and rotate meds. That's all we can do." My kids are my entire world, and now I don't know how to go on. I feel so lost. I NEVER thought it would be one of my babies. I was always so careful about everything. I wish I knew she was okay.