Today is a bad day

People who are healing from a cheating ex always say that there will be good days and bad days. Today is a bad day. I woke up angry at the memory of his betrayal, my chest tightening at the thought that he lied to me for almost two years. Asshole.

I should have poured out my anger during our last conversation when I cornered him with evidence. Instead, I was calm, throwing him question after question to get to the bottom of his schemes. I really should have called him names, cursed at him. Putangina mo!

I am tempted to text him that today.

But I’m holding myself back for my own peace and progress. I have been doing so well on No Contact. I don’t want to break my streak and give him the satisfaction that he still haunts my thoughts. No sir. Let me just throw my piece to the void that is Reddit. I will write my anger away until I feel no more.